The difference

They are starting over with means...
I am starting over with nothing but dreams........

never give up

never give up

In each other's eyes

There is a call inside you, to look for something new.
 a call that you just can't ignore, no matter what you do,
your passing scenes of childhood, you feel your fears arise,
but something calls you deeper, past all the frightening cries.

There is a home you'll find there, connected to a love
one that calls you softly , like a turtle dove.
Here your heart can soften, and leave the hurt and pain,
all that wants to hurt you ,when in your heart refrains.

Come lets go on deeper to the heart of hope,
way beyond the stairways ,the ladders or the ropes.
to a place of fullness, holding all you are,
in a place of healing, healing all your scars.

We can meet together, in this place so free,
it is there, inside of you, and its inside of me.
funny when we get there ,we seem to know this scene.
its been calling us all home, at night in all our dreams.

One day we'll remember,then we'll see at last,
how were all connected ,since way before our past,
joined before the dawning ,of the first sunrise
held in love together,  look in each other's eyes

(I wrote these words this morning.... )
Copyright 2011 James Shurmer

lindsay in the morgue

Lindsay in the morgue

She was late for work in the county morgue

For she couldn’t find the place,

To impress the captive cliental she painted up her face

The mood there on the gurneys was almost a lilting glee,

For the dead had never had some help,

From someone dead as she.

She thought she’d liven up the place

And sing a song or two

But all that this accomplished

Was making them more blue.

She finally came to hate it there,

The corpses seemed to sneer.

And truly made her understand

The death of her career.

Sometimes then if you listen, way down in the hospital bowels,

The dead ones all remember, with screams and awful howls

How a girl named Lindsay Lohan helped them leave this cruel world.

And how she was really like them,

Dead and looking horrid, only she had her hair curled

Two New songs

So I had a morning of inspiration and was able to finish two new songs .... here they are and if you play guitar the chords are there also .... if you don't play guitar the chords are there anyway so play air guitar.

Pathways (capo III ) 

The autumn leaves are blowing       G F G F G

Before the snow

soon it will be slowing

As it was Before

Where we will be going        G F G F G

We’ll never know

Just like the leaves are blowing

Time will show

The pathways through the sun  C Amin D F C G

Winding through the world

Calling us away

There we run, there we run

The seasons the are turning     G F G F G

As we sing

And our hearts are burning

Just like the leaves.

Walking hand in hand    Amin D Amin D F C G

Through the trees

Or falling like the sands

To our knees

The pathways through the sun   C Amin D F C G

Winding through the world

Calling us away

There we run, there we run

Copyright 2011 James Shurmer
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Love will

Love we are at its whim       D A Emin A

So just dive right in,

Never try to win

Love not a thing at all    D A Emin A

Not a thing you hold

Not a thing you call

But love ,love must choose us       G  f#min  G  F#min  A

Love , love will use us all

Only float along, only float along

Love is a mystery       D  A  Emin  A

Only  hearts can see

So just let it be……

Love it can break     D  A  Emin  A

 your heart

or send you to the stars

or send you to the stars

Oh oh let go oh oh oh let go oh oh oh let it flow         Emin  D  Emin  D  G  A  D

Love we are at its whim      D  A  Emin  A

So lets dive right in,

Never try to win

But love ,love must choose us G f#min G F#min A

Love , love will use us all

Only float along, only float along

Copyright 2011 James Shurmer

still and stuck

Being stuck is allot like being still only being still hasn't got any fight in it.
What would be worse is if I were lost first then got stuck.
Hey where the F am I ......... oh god I am lost and stuck!
If I could just be truly still.
still .... without fear .... without worry .... without sadness.... just still.
My mind does not like still .... it demands constant feeding .... more fear ... more worry ... more sadness.
Everything lately has been a fight ...... there can be no stillness in a fight, and as I said no fight in stillness.
I remember a story about my birth ..... I was small and needed to be placed in an incubator for the first month or so...... my mother told me that someone (don't know who) told her don't worry "he's a fighter".
no one ever says "don't worry he's a let goer"
I am tired of fighting everything in life so very tired, I don't know how to just let go and be still...... so I'm stuck.

chaos theory

Who knew Chaos theory would be so interesting????? I am reading the book "Deep Simplicity" by John Gribbin

For me, these types of books are a page turner. The "strangeness" of science never fails to amuse me more than any fantasy or fiction.
I was never great at doing math but the concepts that surround mathematical mystery I find endlessly fascination. This book deals as the title suggests with complexity and chaos from the theory standpoint and has a great deal of short biographical info on the scientists and mathematicians who developed chaos and other theory's.
Of great interest to me was the story of the mathematician named  Alan Turing he was a brilliant mathematician and was responsible for breaking the "enigma" code the Germans used in World War II.
Turing's works was so advanced and ground breaking in terms of computer technology and biology. The very sad part of the story was that he ended up committing suicide do to his sexual orientation. Homosexuality was illegal in the UK in the 1950's. His work with morphogenesis or oscillating chemical reactions was truly ground breaking and, had he been able to continue in his work one can only imagine what discoveries he may have made.
He is just one of many interesting men that have made remarkable discoveries and developed physical laws and theory's that literally shape our technological world.
I know that this sort of reading for some is akin to a root canal but for me I get lost in the mystery of these theory's and marvel at the grand scale of some of this scientific investigation and the under laying mathematical complexity
I studied some thermodynamics when I took Power Engineering back in the 1980's but it didn't capture my attention much then.
This book has done a great job of laying out the laws of thermodynamics in a very simplified way that makes sense to me and ties together chaos theory in a fascinating and entertaining way